Because medical.
Renewal prescription for Adderall as well as a gamut of different labs.
...And a modification to hypertension meds.
PSM wasn't thrilled about my blood pressure, and I'm hesitant to reveal that I know how to bring it down, but can't.
Because until that 100% disability comes in, I gotta remain broke.
Otherwise, quiet day.
Stressed about whether or not my scheduled email for project updates would deliver (it didn't), and otherwise... just... meh.
Had a chance to dwell on a parting shot from Monday, though.
Suze and site lead pulled me aside to talk about the SNAFU that was the attempted project launch I'd had last Friday.
They asked what happened, I reiterated that boss man had already seen the damn thing six times prior, and he kept finding new things to hate about it each time.
"Is there anything we can do to help?" they asked.
"Make adults be adults and do their jobs?" I replied.
Ultimately, it came down to an ultimatum on my side.
"So I'll just not move forward until I get complete consensus," I said. "And I'll blow everyone up every day until I get it."
It's super fucking petty, but apparently...
That's what I gotta do.
Because Rowdy is one of the folks that I've gotta get consensus from, and every single time I ask him about something, he acts as if I'm completely derailing his day.
Even with this shiny new "promotion" under my belt, I can only imagine the amount of money I get is a pale shadow compared to his salary.
So I shouldn't have to fucking ape on him about doing his goddamn job.
Parting shot from me was that I didn't understand why this launch was being so heavily scrutinized compared with the last one.
Obvious response of "because it's used by folks at the top level of the organization".
Fair.
Why, then, trust junior folks with managing that kind of project?
But further than that: why didn't the leads give it the attention you'd expect from a high profile project?
Both those questions are rhetorical.
Because there's no rationality here.
No order.
Just lawlessness, disorder, and general chaos.
As I've mentioned to Steve, I am eager to be rescued by a job away from this one, but I also have a morbid curiosity to last as long as I can to see everything implode.
Because that's what's waiting.
Just around the corner.